Closing time and new beginnings

It's been almost five months since my last post, and since this is my last day in India I thought I should write a new one before I travel home.

The last months have been very introspective. Introspective to the point that social life ended up far down on the priority list and did not even seem that appealing. I have been trying to really get a grip of what direction in life I would both enjoy and excel at the most. Even though I found a lot of answers there are still many things I am a bit unclear about, but I guess perfect clarity is more of a journey than a destination. I have accepted that I can not come up with a grand plan right now, so I am planning to go home and be open minded about the next few steps since in the end all roads lead to Rome. I really want to work either directly or indirectly with the issue of sustainability though, so there I will start looking. Anyone that sees any interesting job openings feel free to drop me a line! ;-)

So what else have I been up to since last time? Just before Christmas my computer got stolen from our office and I lost all the pictures I had taken during my stay here. I had the chance to explore more of India through attending an AIESEC event in Jalandhar in Punjab and a conference in Kodaikanal in Tamil Nadu. Work also took me to some different cities around the state. At work I designed and implemented a lot of different systems for managing things more effectively in the company. I applied for Vice President Organizational Development in AIESEC International, but I was not what they were looking for. It was a very uplifting process since I received so much positive feedback while collecting the required 360 degrees competency assessments and endorsements. Even though I did not get selected all my adjustments of self-awareness was in the positive direction. So, now I feel super empowered in finding a new cause to burn for!

In general I have mainly been excited about going home again but now I am starting to become a bit emotional about it. Interestingly I feel a little bit claustrophobic (fear of small spaces) about it. I guess it comes from cutting all the ties to everything and everyone I have been engaged with for the last eight months, and not having anything concrete to head for. No home. No job. Most friends scattered all around the world. I have to create a new life when I come home. I feel grateful for the experience I have gone through here in India. I have learnt a lot and just as planned it was a great opportunity to let all the personal development I have made the last few years sink in. Thanks to everyone out there that have been a part of this amazing experience!